"I stayed in the barn that night， and the next day I headed into town to look for a job. There was nothing， of course， but I keep looking. After about a week， I was ready to give up. I felt a complete failure， at farming， as a man. I started for home， not knowing if I'd be welcome， but I didn't have anywhere else to go. When she saw me coming down the lane， Nadja came out running， her apron strings riving. She threw her arms around me and I began to weep. I clung to her like a newborn baby."